now now
2019
Woven into this sequence of images are feelings of both revery and animosity for my adolescence—moments that recall an inaccessible, romanticized boyhood. My twenties became a chance to liberate a crucial yet faltered drive in the development of my identity. Many queer individuals establish their idea of self through a silent performance to normalize, of which I am guilty of myself, robbing me of a chance to exercise displays of both platonic and romantic affection toward other men. As an adult, I still carry this childlike sense of curiosity and intrigue, directly impacting how I create work. In now now, I watch the men around me grow up through a lens of intimacy rooted in fascination and admiration—a boyish, innocent love. Light dances through houses like they’re being lit for the first time—an illuminated magic bouncing past windows and off skin. Resentment I had for my childhood peels like a sunburn, exposing a comfort in how this experience has kept my inner child alive.
60 pages on Moab Lasal Photo Matte paper
51 color and black and white photographs
Made in an Edition of 5
2016 - 2019
